Why Blog?

Throughout my years I have always found peace in reflection. Life can be messy, beautiful, and often times quite hard. Written reflection has helped me make meaning from my experiences, both the good and bad. It’s allowed me to look back and see the growth in my relationships, most importantly the relationship I've made with myself. At this point in my life, I can say I had a rewarding career as a teacher. I married the man of my dreams. I surrounded myself with the most loving and supportive friends and family.

I am happy.

I can also say that I am a long list of contradictions. At times I feel utterly defeated in my aspirations. I often suffer from anxiety. I am still longing to accomplish so much more with my life.

I am lost.

I decided to write a blog because I want to capture my successes... my downfalls...my reflections. I am not the girl who will guide you to spiritual awakening through yoga and a healthy diet. I am not the girl who has the perfect relationship. I am not the girl who has found her ideal career path. I am none of those things. I am, however, someone who is passionate, ambitious and doing my best to figure it all out. I value how I feel about my body, but I also really really love to drink beer and eat chicken wings. My relationship started and continued in the most nontraditional way, but I have grown significantly as a person for it. Since I was about 14 years old, I thought I was going to be a teacher for the rest of my life, and here I am at age 26 considering a new career path.

I am certainly uncertain.

My goal is to simply reflect, write, and share my experiences as a young, contemplative person. I hope through my writing that I can reach those who are also in the same boat, as I have realized many of us are. As of a few weeks ago, I quit my career and am about to embark on a journey to Southeast Asia. For the first time ever I am completely uncertain about where my life is taking me; putting myself out there to explore new cultures and live day to day. Many have noted that I am running away from life, which makes me laugh. In a way, I suppose I am. However, for the first time ever I am giving myself the time to write and share the beauty and absurdities that come with life and what I am gaining from those experiences.

I am always smiling.

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